Flaws on purpose

I felt defeated when I came home from work today. And even after I talked to my cheerleader, Terry (my husband), I still felt helpless. I needed back up. So I turned on my praise music, and slowly while I let the music minister to me I realized that even in the midst of a “not so great” day, God STILL REIGNS!!! And even with so many things going wrong today, the emphasis on my “flaws” showed me that, although I possess these “flaws”, God loves me and can still use me to get HIS purpose accomplished. I am NOT a failure, and I am not defeated. In HIM, I am victorious. In HIM, I can do ALL things. And yes, we had some mishaps today, but we got through it. And tomorrow, I can walk in with my head held high, because God is with me and once again he will get me through the day, giving me the strength and guidance that I need to be a good pharmacist.

A long time ago, I expressed that I felt like mental illness was like a “thorn in my side” and I prayed that it would go away. But in some ways, having a mental illness gives an “advantage”. After so many years of enduring intense stress and anxiety, working in the “pressure cooker” environment of a retail pharmacy can be handled in a manner that surprises, even me sometimes. Nothing in life is wasted. Things that are learned earlier in your life will prepare you for the things that lie ahead. Sometimes a “flaw” can become like “armor”.